my hands smell like varsol know because i had to use it to get caulking glue off of them. i just scraped all the sealing around the bathtub off and re-sealed it. it looks a little messy right now but I will spiffy it up when it dries a little more so it doesn't get all over the damn place, ie my toes (which it already did, don't ask how)

i also have to replace a piece of the wall behind the tile as it is completely destroyed. and re-tile where the destruction took place.

my dad is teaching me. he is the one that brought over the caulking gun and showed me how to use it.

next week i may replace the toilet seats as the ones we have now are looking pretty worn out har har.

this is all from a fit of me wanting to paint the bathroom upstairs and realizing i have to fix up areas in the bathroom first before doing that.

i also have to replace the weatherstrip on our front door and the screen needs either mending or replacing as well.

i think i'm getting all this energy to do this stuff now because of SO being on straight afternoons.

i *should* be conserving the energy to do dishes... but i HATE dishes. of all the chores on the planet, cleaning dishes is the one i loathe the most. THE MOST.

SO bought me a dishwasher for mother's day one year, and even with that thing, i still hate it. HATE IT.

ALL CAPS.

HOORAH.

So far the layoff count is up to 13 salary employees with more to come. That's how my week has been. ONE employee rather than even being considered for layoff, actually QUIT. He said he refused to work for a place that treats its employees in the manner that it has treated these. The layoffs were done in a shady fashion with a lot of skulking and facetiousness on the part of the managers etc. So our chemist said "that's it, I'm done" and quit with no notice. THey asked him to behave professionally about this and he said he WAS behaving professionally by sticking to his professional standards and refusing to work under a company that lies, manipulates, and otherwise disrespects its employees on a daily basis. This was just icing on the cake for him.

My parents' surprise 30th anniversary party is next Friday and my mother is suddenly being all psychic or something and calling me on a daily basis to say "What is wrong? Are you keeping something from me? Why are you avoiding me?" and etc. Ahhhhhhhh I will just die if she finds out because of her needling; I have worked for MONTHS on this surprise and we are so close now...

I have put together some mock-wedding vows which are pretty funny. My mom's maid of honor RC is coming... unfortunately, Dad's best man died last year, he was RC's husband.

I have so much to do and not enough time to do it.

Ok time for work, hopefully I'll be coming home with a nice severance (har har).

so i'm a bad journaller and didn't write aboutK's first soccer game, which will now be lost to the ages. short form: he kept forgetting he wasn't allowed to pick up the ball, so he would sometimes and throw it away from everyone and chase it down the field. he also can run like the wind and once he gets some style going, he will be a phenomenal player. no joke sir.

He scored a goal last game which had him reeling with excitement! 'MOM I SCORED FIVE GOALS' um honey you only scored the one 'OK BUT SHH I WANNA PEETEND I SCORED FIVE K?' His team won 3-1 which made him even happier.

C was goalie yesterday and she managed to stop quite a few which I am fiercely proud of because in general she is a bit afraid of the ball - too many times being hit by said ball in either the noggin or belly from high-kicking team mates during practice. Her team won as well, 7-2.

A few people I ran into at the game last night asked me why I didn't choose to coach this year, as they thought I had did marvellously last year. I had no real response to that as I had no idea and didn't want to this year because I have enough on my plate.

Relay for Life went really well, it was pretty moving to see the survivors do the first lap. The luminary bags lit up the track wonderfully and the rain managed to stay away for most of the night. Looking at the bags left a curious lump in my throat as I saw my grandfather's name printed on some of them. It is almost a sickness that I can still miss him this much, 7 years after the fact. I suppose it is testimony to how much he meant to me.

When I love someone I love them with my whole self. So when they die, it feels like a part of my self goes with them. That's why I ache. That being said, I find it very difficult to allow myself to get to the point where I love someone. So if you are on the list, be glad.

So I picked up the new Killers album, "Hot Fuss", which is an event to be marked because I honestly cannot remember the last time I purchased an actual CD. I really like it; it is catchy and reminds me of blur, minus the drug-addled voice.

I have a bridal shower to go to this afternoon for my friend Sm, who is getting married the weekend before L. Two weddings in a row! Whooboy. The nice thing is... I can wear the same dress to both because nobody I know from one camp knows anybody from the other camp so hurrah!


One of our financial controllers who has been working for the company for 16 years just got the boot this week, and is being replaced by one from the Griffin plant = the Griffin plant is being shut down? Why would we invest in a financial controller who probably contributed to part of the Griffin problem? I don't get people.

Next weekend is my cousin CS's grade 8 grad party. I cannot tell you how strange it is to know that, because I still remember rocking back and forth with her in my arms when she was a baby.

too fucking hot and tired to post much more than "hi i am alive and no worries about me"

lots went on, i laughed i cried i liked it better than "Cats"...

who is archie meant to be with, betty or veronica?

Ok so. Last entry was pretty damn funny.

Woke up still drunk at 8 am. Finally sobered up around noon... just in time to drive 1-1/2 hrs to my cousin L's bridal shower. She got some really nice stuff!

I got her a Wedgwood oval Queen's Plain serving platter (click link to see what pattern looks like) from Bradshaw's because I knew that of all the things on her list she coveted that the most. I also got her a gorgeous sake set that came with a little tray and bamboo storage crate that was just lovely. And Zoodles. You read that right: I purchased for my darling L a can of Zoodles. It is her comfort food. :)

It was nice to see my family and all, and it sort of made me wish I lived a little closer. But I like the city I live in and would not want to move at this point.

My cousin V was looking well which gave me a little bit of relief because I've been really worried about her lately. She knows why.

Took the kids to see Madagascar on Saturday and you know, I really enjoyed it. It was just me and them and they were so excited and of course ate almost all their popcorn before the movie even started, but I love seeing their faces when they are anticipating something they've been looking forward to for a long time.

The movie wasn't half bad either. It was a good mix of kid humor & adult humor. The animation was campy but fun. The lemurs were pretty interesting...

I had more to say but I'm about to get the kids to C's first soccer game. I'll write about K's first game on my next entry. Boy was it a doozy. He is going to be awesome once he figures out he shouldn't swan-dive for the ball, throw it out of the kids' way so he can kick it, and actually stop when the ref blows the whistle. He's a pretty aggressive player but also pretty mindful - not once did he push or pull on a kid.

Ok time to go for reals.

ps ailie check yr email sometime, i sent you a pledge.

S &JH's buck n doe was tongith it was an 80s
' theme

vey rmubhg booze whooray!


Wone best costume was 80;s punk bithc was hawt &* awesome wish i had a goddam n camera

Got old lp of very best fun

mad elots of frienss

omg so drunk

as if i could spell omg ubt not frienss

omg gonna go wake shawn uop much sex now bye

will prolly ben emberaasessed about entry tomorrow dun care had fun vmuch hooray! all good songs incl th ecultt etc b/c i was punk bitch hooray for safety pins & manic panick & reliving youth so sad shawn didn't come now going to pounce him muchly needed ok

MADAGASCAR DAY!!! WHEEEE

As mentioned in an earlier post, I am participating in the relay for life this year. If you are interested in pledging me, please do so:

(removed pledge - no longer required)



I've never asked for pledges online before... so here goes nothing. I feel a little strange doing so but this is a very personal cause.

Thanks in advance!

tidbits:

C lost another tooth, both top ones are gone now and she couldn't look cuter.

I have to go in to work today and Monday. So much for a long week-end.

SO pulled ligaments in his left ankle at work. He'll be ok but the doc says he'd have been better off breaking it.

A guy at work came out last week as a trans-sexual. He expressed the wish to be referred to as a woman, from Monday onward. "She" is now going through the first stages before operation: hormone treatments, counselling, etc. She has been living as a woman everywhere but at work for some time now, and I give her ALL the credit in the world for being brave enough to come out and tell everyone who was present her situation.

The company management was uncharacteristically supportive, giving him a key to the unisex washroom mostly intended for guests (until the confusion dies down and people accept the situation) and even allowing him to wear a skirt the first day (out where he works, depending on the area, skirts are prohibited for their safety). The response from some employees have left me disgusted. Between the tittering behind her back, the disgusting remarks, and the threats, I am completely taken aback NOT by this woman's actions but by the actions of her so-called peers. Myself, I think it is terrific that she is finally able to walk and live the life as she wishes to. Though she needs a little help in the make-up department, and her hair needs a new style (she has the betty page look going, but the cut is too severe for her facial structure), but those things come with time and experience, and gentle guidance from friends.

Some people say she is sick and needs to talk to a psychiatrist... the mentality that is right up there with thinking a homosexual can just go to a therapist and be CURED of their homosexuality. Which of course is complete bupkus.

I'm just bothered by the reaction because some of the people reacting this way, I would never have expected to be so narrow-minded. Fortunately for her, the town we live in tends to embrace people from all walks and especially embrace the more flamboyant types (being a city that houses quite a few artists and actors, it is to be expected) but even so there are those who would shun and persecute these same wonderful people. I for one think it is terrific to have people from all walks (and preferences) living here and contributing to the community and part of the draw to living here is the diversity. Take away the festival and the galleries and the truly gifted people, and it's just another town.

Anyway, time to get ready to go in to work and pretend like I like being there.

C turned 7 today. She also woke up to one less tooth!

I want to share something with you that I discovered in her "tooth fairy pillow". It was a little note tucked inside that said "Dear Tooth Faery I want you to have this love your pal C ps turn over mesag." on the other side it said "It... is... a.... coat..." just like that with the dots. She had tucked a little barbie jacket inside the note. She was worried the tooth fairy would be cold with all the bad weather we've had.

It is for that reason and thousands more that I love her to bits.

I made her her favorite breakfast: chocolate chip pancakes. I cut them into hearts and that made her day like the dickens. Her teacher drew a charicature of her with her one-less-tooth grin and had each of her classmates say something that they liked about her. Then her teacher wrote it down and C got to bring it home with her at the end of the day.

I have more to say but never enough time to say it. I'm working crazy hours again, and am drawing the conclusion that I cannot in good conscience quit in September like initially planned, because SO's knees are going to hell in a handbasket doing the job he is doing, and I'd much rather he take on a job that gives a little less pay, and me keep working where I am. What's a little stress if my husband will be able to walk without pain?

I'm having little panicky moments because his workplace is turning everything helter-skelter, as far as their shifts go. We'll have to find new babysitting and I don't know what to do because I have this issue with trust especially when it comes to my kids and who gets to care for them. Call me crazy but it's true.

Ok time to go.

Forgot to post this yesterday (16th) so I'm cheating and putting that date down anyway. neener neener.

also, !!!!?!?!


addendum (7/22/05): http://www.roadrunnerrecords.com/blabbermouth.net/news.aspx?mode=Article&newsitemID=36711

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peter_Steele

http://www.nuclearblast.de/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=2752&view=previous&

Just finished up C's birthday party. Her real birthday is May 16th but Monday parties suck so we made it for Saturday before. We played various games I made up on the fly

- I cut a hole in a shoebox turned it over and made them see how many out of 6 plastic golf balls they could get in
- I made up a game "plink" with various circles on a big piece of bristol board in various sizes worth different points and put hello kitty stickers on my dollar store poker chips and each kid had to see how many points they could rack up.
- I cut up a big orange circle and big white petal-shaped pieces and we played pin the petal on the daisy

Then I had terra cotta pots with their names in sticker on it and big lady bug and buzzy bee metallic stickers all over and picked up various seeds and dirt and let them go to town planting their own flowers to take home.

Cake and ice cream and balloon fights and screaming and whooboy am I ever tired. I stayed up later than usual to watch House of Flying Daggers and then couldn't get to sleeep because K kept talking in his sleep so I stayed up watching crap movies all night and now I'm uber exhausted and I cannot believe I used the word uber in a sentence.

I've got a case of the blues coming on due to PMS and also nothing going right lately. I had made plans to visit my cousin V on the 28th and those may be going down the tubes due to babysitting issues. I'm hoping maybe I can see her the May 2-4 instead... will have to call later. I will send a note with my Aunt DPk since she's down here and all...

ok time to pass out.

MY DAUGHTER IS ALMOST SEVEN OMG! PANIC ATTACK!

Happy Mother's day to all.

Lots of stuff going on, no time to write it all down.

Having both my mother & mother in law and families over for supper tonight. Eep. Lots of food and guilt, hurrah!

I have two weddings to go to in a row this year, my friend SM & JH, and my cousin L & JC. Good thing: two completely different spheres of my life, so I can wear the same dress. Bad thing: Everything seems to be overlapping.

I am participating in the Relay for Life this year. I am setting up online donations, will let you know when.

Ok time to go.