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the funeral etc.
Posted by Slowplum
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8/21/2004 09:09:00 PM
the funeral was hard but the service was beautiful and i could actually follow it although it was in a dialect of portuguese that was unfamiliar to me.
you know it's a hard funeral when the attending priest breaks down.
he was so thin they had had to stuff him so that he would look decent for visitation.
his daughter was an absolute wreck.
it's a little depressing, realizing that i am getting to the point in my life where i only see some family at weddings, funerals, etc.
it's also very depressing that in my 28 year tenure on this planet, i have yet to attend a family funeral where the person died of natural causes. i have been to no less than 2 family funerals a year since i was ten and all - ALL - have been cancer. on both sides.
future outlook: grim.
and i kept thinking about my grandfather today. it's only natural i suppose. i saw where my other grandfather was buried today as well. i had to drive my grandmother home after all was said and done and she asked me point blank why i didn't bother to attend his funeral. and i couldn't tell her because telling her would mean opening a huge wound and i could never do that to her. the woman has seen enough.
i'm tired and weepy and strangely horny. heh. probably a lot of untended-to anxiety and nowhere to put it or something. although i'm sure there's a study somewhere out there that would prove that grief brings that emotion out in a lot of people.
anyway, i've been up since 4 and didn't go to sleep until 1 so i'm wiped. nightnight.
you know it's a hard funeral when the attending priest breaks down.
he was so thin they had had to stuff him so that he would look decent for visitation.
his daughter was an absolute wreck.
it's a little depressing, realizing that i am getting to the point in my life where i only see some family at weddings, funerals, etc.
it's also very depressing that in my 28 year tenure on this planet, i have yet to attend a family funeral where the person died of natural causes. i have been to no less than 2 family funerals a year since i was ten and all - ALL - have been cancer. on both sides.
future outlook: grim.
and i kept thinking about my grandfather today. it's only natural i suppose. i saw where my other grandfather was buried today as well. i had to drive my grandmother home after all was said and done and she asked me point blank why i didn't bother to attend his funeral. and i couldn't tell her because telling her would mean opening a huge wound and i could never do that to her. the woman has seen enough.
i'm tired and weepy and strangely horny. heh. probably a lot of untended-to anxiety and nowhere to put it or something. although i'm sure there's a study somewhere out there that would prove that grief brings that emotion out in a lot of people.
anyway, i've been up since 4 and didn't go to sleep until 1 so i'm wiped. nightnight.