I had a pretty good weekend, all things considered. Went to my friend JD's buck and doe (canuck type celebratin type thing that the wedding party puts on for the bride and groom to get some money for them) and tied a few on.
 
My brother was there and his girlfriend and her family and etc. I saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a while and danced for the first time in way too long. And drank for the first time in way too long, but didn't get a hangover.
 
I decided to walk home and a friend walked with me, and we talked about him and what was new and me and what was new, and it was nice. It was rainy but not really, more of a misty rain. He was a friend of one of my ex's, I always did like him and am glad we remained on good terms in spite of the ex.
 
Anyway, the next day I got a migraine really bad to the point where I was blind. Not a hangover but still due to my stupidity not taking my medication the night before. I was out of commission for most of the day.
 
Saw Zoolander and Spy Game this weekend as well.This isn't in very good order. Oh well.

had some fun with the other 1/2 last night, road to reparation looking a lot sunnier. 
  

 
super sekrit message for cod:
hf;jaok akiagljjwa;vledadtfadl;gdfjablbla,j;ykf


have a good day all :)

did i mention the earthquake saturday morning? 5.5 on the richter scale.

slow truce in the works. the boy finally apologised. he was too dense to recognize what he did. figures. 
 
friday he stayed home from work so i took my daughter out shoe shopping. she got to pick out her own and try them on in the store. she thought this was the coolest idea since peanabuddersammiches. she got some sparkley pink sneakers and some power puff girls sandals. very snazzy. then we went to the bookstore to pick up the book i had ordered for SO for his birthday that came a day too late. it is the ultimate guide to spiderman with a forward by stan lee and illustrations throughout the book. (tell me i am not a cool wife. i dare you.) i also got him some superman boxers. also got my son some new summer sandals. i find it difficult to find cool little boy shoes. what's up with that? aggravating, considering k has inherited my penchant for nice footwear. so we came home with all the goodies, did a quick wrap job and called SO into the kitchen (he was playing his game of course). he came in and opened it and went. "oh. thanks." and walked out again. FUCCCCCCCK. i totally yelled at him for it and he was like "sorry, no realy i'm sorry i'm just not feeling well and cranky. i love it. really."

i was not convinced.

saturday morning i had to work 7 - 12. then i went shopping. i picked up new bras and underwear for me. purple, red, black. for once i bought myself something without feeling guilt or remorse. so there! also a cool shirt that is deep red with black leopard pattern on it. and thigh high stockings. meow. then i came home to find the house a torrential mess. in a matter of 5 hours the kids had managed to undo all the good cleaning i had been doing all freakin week. and SO let them. bastage. anyhow. i came home and asked SO "black purple or red?" he says "hunh?" i said "just pick a color". he goes "uhhhh...red? what are you going on about?" i said "i want to know what color you want to unwrap later." he says "hunh?" i wink. he was still confused. the boy is not so good with subtlety.

so then i took a bath. and fell asleep in the bath. and woke up to my daughter banging on the bathroom door saying "mommy are you ok in there?" well, at least someone checks up on me. haha! so i get out and get dressed up and come downstairs to find my in-laws standing there. they had come over to give him a card and to give me money for the walk for MS i was doing on sunday. then they left, SO took a quick shower and we took the kids to my parents' home. sat and talked with them a while and then took off for ice cream! i had new york cherry cheese cake ice cream for the first time, it was yum. SO had some sort of sundae called a triple brownie ecstacy. it looked like a big giant toothache to me.

anyhow, yes. went to see the scorpion king (birthday boy's pick). it was cheesy(do not expect oscar material from the rock, you are only deluding yourself if you do). but ok. we went home then and watched the muskateer. which was stupid. i mean the plot was ok, but i wasn't all too thrilled with any of the "acting" (and i use that term liberally). my favorite was porthos (but he always has been). the fight scenes looked like they stole stunts from jackie chan movies.

whatever else was done is between me and him and the gov't spies.

sunday. woke up early. went to the walk for MS. it was a poor turn out this year which was sad to me but also maybe understandable, it was cold as cold could be for the walk. i didn't manage to raise as much as last year, people were stingy. come on! it's for a good cause! it's not like i'm using the pledge money to get a new dress! geez people. anyway. so yes. did the walk then went over to my friend s's house. we just sat around talking for a while, something i haven't done in ages and had sorely missed. she agreed with me about SOeing an ass. so then i went home and had a talk with him and he apologised. then he made supper. then i went to work.

our plumbing in the kitchen is fucked up. we need it fixed soon. our dishes are slowly taking everything over.

that's all for now. wow. that was unusually verbose.

i slept like crap last night. no dreaming though. hmm.
 
today i go to lunch w/mar. i missed lunch w/s wednesday (where were you girl?)
 
i had more to say but my mind is too blurry right now.

I like talking like a pirate.
 
Today is SO's birthday. Last night I tried to surprise him with dinner and etc. but the first thing he did when he walked through the door was give me shit for having the AC on (it was a bazillion degrees because of all the cooking) so I told him good night and let him put everything away. Sorry buddy but if you are going to have your head up your ass you aren't getting it.

one day, i really will go vacation on the moon...

Departure and worry,

And worry and worry,

Still shake me.

Resistance fails,

Resistance fails.

And friendship fails,

And friendships fail.

As lovers we did not fail.

As lovers we did not fail.

Brown eyes,

Your pulse is getting hotter.

Brown eyes,

Your pulse is getting quicker,

Quoth Captain Badass

I am setting your heart on fire,

So when you leave me I will burn on in your soul,

You won't have to think twice,

If it's love you will know.

We get no second chance in this life.

We get no second chance in this life.

So a hot pulse is all right?

(it's all right)

So a quick pulse is all right?

(it's all right)

So a hot kiss is all right?

(it's all right)

So a long kiss is all right

(it's all right)

So a long night is all right

(it's all right)

And all night is all right?

(it's all right)

There ain't no contest

Against the final day
 
We'll rise above us,

Either way.

Were either greeted by life or it's reverse.

Then each day greeted by fortune or it's reverse
Will you stand up, for your one chance?

Will you stand up for love?

We get no second chance in this life.

We get no second chance in this life.

You won't have to think twice, if it's love you will know.
 
(((Songs: Ohia - Captain Badass)))

i feel achey to the bone and i am sinking slipping down down but i promise i won't drown

i can swim but i choose not to it is funny how choice works it seems like such a good idea at the time oh, at the time it all makes sense

hindsight oh it is 20/20 you know that by now and oh man oh man what am i going to do with this?

i love and i love and i love and i love until it smashs burns tears up my heart into eleventy billion pieces.

stop calling me cute. i'm not cute. sanrio characters are cute. not me.

slip slap sliding down down
down
down
down

i could sleep forever and ever were it not for you, so.

i haven't had a cigarette since january.
 
go me.
back to work. trudgery.

i have no compass you have no hull i said i would trade but you thought better of it but at least with a compass i could see how far down i sink.
 
i am tired and lost and sad and numb. and tired of being tired and lost and sad and numb.somebody throw me a lifeline.
 
i told you (a different you) i was ok but i lied and i'm sorry. i'm not ok. but i'm not going anywhere either. i promise.
 
i told yet another you i was sorry about your problems and i am and i said i wish i could help and i meant it. i do. i do.
 
i told even another you that i am afraid. and it's true.

strange bizarre fucked up dream. dream of a boy who was after me back in the day except it was mingled with today. and then suddenly he was someone else and he had stepped on my sandwich. and i was mad i was furious but i was also intrigued so i let him take me home.
 
except his home was a frat house and there were boys boys boys and they kept walking in and out as we talked and talked and then he tried to convince me to take acid but i told him i couldn't because i had to get up early with my children and he looked at me funny as if to say "what children?" and i realized i was mixing lives up again. so i changed the subject and asked if i could go take a bath. he said sure but wasn't really a good idea to do so in a house full of boys. i said i could take care of myself.
 
so i was in this bath and i heard a clicking noise and there was a beetle perched on the edge of the tub staring at me clicking clicking and i was frightened (only because the night before i ahd a dream these same clicking beetles were crawling all over me biting me and leaving me paralyzed with fear and pain) but i refused to get out of the bath because it was warm and comforting and i needed warmth and comfort. so instead i called out for help and someone came in and they shooed the beetle away and then sat in the bathroom and talked with me while i bathed. i told him i was sleepy and could he tell me a story. and he did. and then he grabbed a huge towel and wrapped it around me and i was so cold, i was shivering cold
 
and i woke up cold, shivering.

(g) hehehe
(g) you want a story, MA
(MA) always, g =)
* E_ grabs MA's juice box and bonks him on the head with a foam bat then sits down for story time
* g boxes E_'s ears
(g) settle down, kids.
* ob pulls up a nice big beanbag
(g) i have to think up a story now. whooboy.
* E_ looks down
(g) where did i leave off? anyone remember?
(E_) ...yes miss g...
(E_) right before the guy ran over the cat with a lawn mower
(g) i remember @_" meeting "_& and having -" "- -"
* MA gives E_ a surreptitious wedgie and blames the kid who always wears flannel and picks his nose
(E_) Or wait...
(ob)  hey!
* E_ beats up ob
(ob) I saw YOU do it!
* g flicks the lights on and off
(g) [why did teachers do that? it never settled the kids down...]
(E_) settled us down
* ob makes the quiet-lips sign
(E_) it was made to be the equivalent of the parents calling w/ middle name
(g) so anyway
(g) one day shelley came home early from work
(g) ...&_"
(g) and found mister snail with that skeezie miss slug.
(g) ...&_" __" "~~
(cod) nooooo!
(g) shelley cried in a fit of rage.
* cod ends his outburst abruptly
(g) then she took him for every thing he had.
(g) she took his house.
(g) @-"_&.... "__
(g) she took the kids.
(g) "_&.... "-... "-....
(g) she took his dignity by moving in with the snail he got in a fight with two books before.
(g) #_" "_&
(g) lonely and crushed, mister snail was left with nothing but miss slug and a slimey infection.
(g) __" "~~
(g) so he found god.
(g)        ((())))_""
(g) it was the buddha snail, with 4 feelers and a giant shell.
(g) he asked the buddha snail, oh great one, how can i get my life back in order?
(g)       ((())))_"" "__.......
(g) [y'all can stop me any time now]
* xu declares ob to be a SAINT.
* E_ bonks MA with the bat again
(g) to be continued!
(MA) HUZZAH !
(g) i cannot believe you were all quiet for that.
(cod) but wait wait! what did the buddha snail tell him!
* cod can't wait until next weeks' episode!
(g) hehehe
* E_ takes the foam covering off the bat and wield it at CoD
(g) thank you for humoring me, cod dear
(g) E_ don't make me put you in the corner.
(E_) buddha snail told him YOULL FIND OUT NEXT TIME LIKE G SAID

33. HOW WAS YOUR SENIOR PROM?
eh, i was still in a bit of pain from the appendectomy i had the week before. and my boyfriend at the time had been expelled from school and was looking to pick fights with the teachers. i can at least say i went. i can at least say that.
 
34. TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS.
my birthdays are filled with sadness. let's talk about something else.
 
35. WHAT DO YOU MOST ENJOY ABOUT LOOKING AT OTHER PEOPLE?
i don't get this question.
 
36. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?
1) travel travel travel
2) quit my job with zero days' notice and make so quit his too
3) set up trust funds for my family
4) hire a good accountant
5) lots of toys
 
37. WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL?
check the front door. check in on my kids. kiss their sleeping foreheads goodnight. strip. read a little. maybe fool around with the hubby, maybe not. lay in bed and beg for sleep to come.
 
38. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU?
mischief. a boy used to call me that. then he would ask if it was ok if he got into some mischief. he was a sweet and clever boy. but he never did get into any.
 
39. NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS.
1)Bender
2)Homer Simpson
3)Johnny Bravo
 
40. WHAT ARE THE MAGAZINES YOU READ ON A REGULAR BASIS?
eh, i don't read magazines much. so whatever i do is whatever i grab off the shelf.
 
41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES?
 i cannot choose between them.
 
42. WOULD YOU RATHER BE A HOBBIT, AN ELF OR A DWARF?
a moon elf.
 
43. WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG.
"they called him freak and he lost all his friends could only speak to the boys in the band un-somnambulist you stay awake and see what happens eighty-five weeks with no nappin' but you don't believe oo-ooh no, you don't believe no, you don't believe"
 
-Frank Black & the Catholics, 85 Weeks

1. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR USERNAME?
i'll never tell.
 
2. NAME FIVE [5] OF YOUR FAVORITE PIGOUT FOODS.
french fries with gravy
ice cream
a tray full of crisp vegetables
cookies
spaghetti
 
3. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER?
no. what for?
 
4. HAVE YOU EVER WITNESSED DEATH?
unfortunately, yes.
 
5. WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE?
went to the island of sao miguel in the azores portugal. it was for two weeks. my parents were born there.
 
6. ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY.
my stupid little life.
 
7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY?
none of my favorite memories are ones that i can publicly share. sorry.
 
8. WHAT IS THE MOST INSANE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR/TO YOUR LOVE?
i married him.
 
9. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING.
do yourselves a favor people. elope. weddings are only cool and nice for the guests. for the "happy couple" the planning of said event is a living hell of colors and rice.
 
10. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE DOING WHEN YOU ARE 60?
i like to live in the now. don't you?
 
11. WHAT IS YOUR FIRST MEMORY?
seeing my brother after he came home from the hospital. i was almost two.
 
12. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE QUOTE?
yes but it changes as i change. today it is along the lines of "the world has room for man's need, but not man's greed" - ghandi
 
13. MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS...
too young to realize that it was my first heartbreak.
 
14. HOW MUCH MONEY DOES IT TAKE TO KEEP YOU FOR A YEAR?
i have no earthly idea.
 
15. DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES?
i am neurotic about having all the closets in the house closed when not in use.
 
16. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
gah, i don't know. i have come to a place where i don't try to understand them anymore, i just accept them as they are, individually.
 
17. WHAT PIECE OF TECHNOLOGY DO YOU WANT MOST RIGHT NOW?
a machine that will beam me anywhere i want to go and still be back in time to make supper.
 
18. NAME ONE TV CHARACTER YOU'D MOST WANT TO BE.
carrie from sex and the city. i want her job and her shoe collection. she can keep the rest.
 
19. FAVORITE GEMSTONE?
ruby.
 
20. GIVE YOURSELF A PORN STAR NAME.
lady licksalot. hell i don't know. i am not meant to be a porn star. where's the damn name generator when you need it?
 
21. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FLAW?
i spend hours agonising over my other flaws. i am working on changing that. once that is done, my worst flaw will be that i am a nail biter.
 
22. WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER?
spend a lot of time in the sun with my kids.
 
23. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW?
robyn hitchcock - mexican god
 
24. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES IN THESE CATEGORIES: HUMOR, ROMANCE, DRAMA, ACTION, HORROR?
1) Humor: ferris bueller's day off, high fidelity
2) Romance: say anything
3) Drama: meet joe black, madame x
4) Action: true lies
5) Horror: the original night of the living dead
 
25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY SONG?
i don't have one.
 
26. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE.
a clean one. (typical mom answer)
 
27. YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR:
nekkid.
 
28. WHAT'S IN YOUR BAG?
never, never, NEVER ask a woman what's in her bag/purse. you will be waiting a while as she lists the contents.
 
29. WHAT IS THE MOST INTERESTING THING YOU'VE EVER WORN, PIERCED, OR TATTOOED?
a wedding dress.
 
30. HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW?
$0. i use my debit card more than anything else.
 
31. WHAT'S YOUR NEXT CHARACTER CONCEPT?
i don't do character concepts. i let them be who they are without dictating.
 
32. WHAT ARE YOU MOST PROUD OF IN YOUR LIFE?
my kids.-------there's more but i ahve to go to work. will do the rest later.

i need a change.