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Posted by Slowplum on 7/30/2003 09:31:00 PM
you're sleeping in your bed
just rest your weary head
maybe you shouldn't care
throw away those dreams

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/30/2003 08:26:00 PM
Introspective.

Cavity in my head throbbing, high pitched screams disrupting my everything. At work. yes. at work.

Can't cry for laughing

mo my momma momma mo my mother...


Can I get a witness? Less stress. Please?

Boss visited today. Did not recognize my own boss. Yeah. Bleh.

Meh.

He couldn't believe how fast

I typed.

yeah.

so.

can I get a witness? Need to get out of this mess.

can't cry for

can't cry

can't

oh yes I can.

Whoops, there goes my heart again.

No bandaid left to tape it.

when we were kids, we hated things our parents did...

Depressed and stressed and no one here to witness.

I can't remember the last time I really laughed and meant it.

cradle my heart in an eggshell, be careful not to blow it all out again

snap!

People at work are acting more and more hostile to me. What the bleeding fuck. I have no idea. Maybe I should just shut the fuck up and be happy I have a job, right?

Maybe I should just

shut

the fuck

up.

shut out what they say, they're too dumb to mean it anyway

I spent all day thinking it was Tuesday.

The only thing I wanted for my birthday was to be made to feel I was worth their while. I got towels and dinner at Red Lobster.

Why do I even bother anymore?

have you forgotten how to love yourself

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/30/2003 08:11:00 PM
can't cry for laughing

tripped over two hitmen asleep on a rosebed

now i've found you, seems like i'll calm down

chill out, i'll come quietly

won't make a sound...

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/27/2003 11:49:00 AM
happy birthday to me.

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Update! For the mildly curious and insanely bored.

Posted by Slowplum on 7/24/2003 08:03:00 AM
So.

The buck and doe on the weekend was great, because there were people there I haven't seen in a while and also because SO and I haven't been out together doing something fun without kids in tow for a long, long time. Well. The kids were there for the dinner part and they entertained everyone with their dancing. C was whooping it up like she was on flashdance, sliding across the floor and everything. She came up to the table at one point and I asked her if she wanted any more to eat and she said, rather seriously, "no thanks mom, I have to go back to work." and ran off and did her gymnastics in the middle of the floor again. SO's parents were good enough to take the kids home with them and SO's father offered to pick us up at the end of the event so we wouldn't have to fork out money for a cab.

Needless to say, I had a bit to drink. Ok a lot. I was matching him drink for drink, at one point I think I even passed him. A lot of it was a blur but mostly it was fun. Also had a long talk with one of our friends who is going through a bit of a bad patch; his wife left him back in June. We are all shocked and outraged about the events that led up to this defection and I'd detail it here but some matters are not for public dissection. I feel so awful for this guy, he's one of those nice people that everyone loves and wouldn't hurt a fly. Yeah.

A friend from work showed up at the event as well which was sort of neat, though it's difficult to mix both worlds together, know?

After the buck and doe we all went to the bar where most of us actually didn't even want to be. The bar is loud and annoying full of obnoxious drunks and just not my scene anymore. After about a half hour there we all went to our friend SC's (the guy whose wife left him) home and drank some more and just talked. It was really nice.

Came home just in time to greet the morning birds. Stayed up longer and talked and whatever. Went to bed and ended up tossing and turning until finally giving up, getting up and watching television. Stayed up long enough to watch the George Burns & Gracie Allen show (yow!) and fell asleep halfway through Cosby. Woke up an hour later still feeling drunk. Yeah. Sort of sat on the couch curled up into a ball until around noon when I finally got enough energy to get up, take a shower and wake up SO.

His parents came and dropped the kids off, then SO's mom was good enough to take me and C to the grocery store to get some last minute supplies for K's birthday (as I was in no condition to drive, hungover and all).

Went to work Monday STILL hungover. Was long, long day. Came home and we had planned a bbq for K, so naturally it poured rain. Nonetheless, the bbq went on and everyone was well fed and K got spoiled and all was well. I cannot believe my baby is three.

Tuesday and Wednesday was a blur of trying to tie up loose ends before taking time off today through to next Tuesday. So yeah. Don't recall much about that.

SO bought Star Wars Galaxies, it actually looks neat (from an outsider's point of view) but I bet it is still buggy as all hell.

He also re-started his Dark Age of Camelot account and bought the expansion. Oi.

Did I mention I really want a truck? I do. We had to get the car fixed last week and after inconveniencing us for three days in a row they finally acquiesced and gave us a courtesy vehicle - free of charge, woo! Gorgeous truck, don't ask me what make because I am car stupid. It was a ford and it was black and it had a back seat in the cab and all kinds of room and it was like flying down the road because I was up so high. Mmm. Truck.

So the car is all fixed which was another big bite out of our money situation. So buck and doe investment + k's birthday + fixing the car + not one, but TWO online games purchased (poss. three, don't know if he quit EQ yet) = no birthday happiness for me. Yeah. I don't want to talk about it, ok? It just upsets me.

Time to go do anything but work.

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/23/2003 05:45:00 PM
Today was a good day at work. One of the girls I work with who is there as a summer student (she was there last year as well, and we get along great) made me a rainbow chip birthday cake with gummies and kit kats and fuzzy peaches on top. Total surprise. She also got everyone she ran into to sign a card for me. It was a wonderful surprise and I really felt nice about it.

...until...

there's this other girl at work and we have the same birthday and she got all bent out of shape because they didn't make anything for her. So she's been totally snubbing me and trying to make ME feel bad about something beyond my control.

The reason why they did it today and not Friday (my birthday is Sunday for those of you keeping track) is because I decided FUCK IT I AM TAKING TIME OFF WORK so tomorrow, Fri and Monday I AM ON HOLIDAY! YAY!

ok gotta go eat supper now

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/22/2003 06:40:00 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNIE!

My internet was being cruddy last night and I could not do that earlier. Snarl.

PS jannie I dunno if I can get anyone to watch the kidlets, maybe I can bring them with me to visit you? Or we could wait till monday and I can visit you then when SO is home

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/21/2003 09:52:00 PM
My son turned three today. Happy birthday, little K. You make my heart smile like sunshine.

I still have things to say about the weekend and also about today's birthday events, but I'm still also quite tired and feel no energy to write it all down.

Apologies all around. Meh. Only about 4 of you actually read these entries anyway ;p

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brrr it's cold

Posted by Slowplum on 7/19/2003 06:40:00 AM
Crazy as it sounds, THIS stuff happens to me all. the. frickin. time.

Also, I am tired.

Also, uhm... I forget what I was going to write.

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...oh! Right. Tonight is a buck and doe for SO's friend CL and his fiance KL. SO is the best man at their upcoming nuptials, so obviously he has to attend the buck & doe. I am not feeling so hot however, and K just got over the flu. Hopefully C won't get it but we can't be sure. I want to go to this event, but at the same time I really, really do not want to go. I mostly want to go to see friends I haven't seen in a while. I mostly don't want to go because I feel like a bag of hell and need nothing more than 16 hours of sleep (wishful thinking).

I'm going to go visit my cousin L in August, that will be nice. She is also hosting the next CGN in September, I cannot wait! We were talking on the phone last night and she said "you know, you really set the bar high for this" and I said "woman, go big or go home." And then we laughed. Honestly, it isn't about the stuff, it's about spending time together as a family. We obviously can't rely on our parents to take the initiative and we are surely old enough to do it ourselves. Meh.

Can you picture me with a phone at each ear, typing madly on the computer to finish off a NAFTA while greeting customers at my desk? That was my ENTIRE day yesterday. Yeah. Hell, that was most of my week.

I have this stupid song stuck in my head, THANKS ALOT CRAPPY RADIO STATION.

I woke up absolutely freezing. Small wonder, SO had wrapped the blankets around him like he was some sleeping burrito. He totally coccoons himself when he sleeps, which is fine most of the time as I am a walking furnace, but when I am not feeling well, the heat just ain't there and my teeth were all chattery.

Ok time to go do mom type things. Have a good day everyone.

General question: what was the best/most interesting wedding you've been to? If you have not been to a wedding at all, then uhm, replace "wedding" with "other large gathering involving mass quantities of food and drink".

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/17/2003 05:56:00 AM
qous! munky!

also i was up all night taking care of k who has the flu. i am exhausted but can't call in to work because my boss is at a conference and he's the only other person who can do my job. bah.

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/15/2003 08:15:00 PM
Reading this totally made my day. Thanks guys. Much love.

Work is work. I am happy to have a job and am adapting to doing both pretty well.

Finally caved and got the NWN expansion. So yeah.

My son turns 3 on the 21st. I turn 27 on the 27th. Yay for July! I decided to take the thursday friday and monday off work on my birthday weekend. That way I can wallow in my birthdaical (is that a word?) depression without interruption from work duties. ha!

Had dinner with my sister-in-law's ex today. Was nice to see him though a little weird too, I don't know. bah.

Had more to say but mind went blank. Bleh.

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/14/2003 10:21:00 PM
please leave a message at the beep.





beep

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/13/2003 08:31:00 AM
Watched Gangs of New York last night. It was pretty good, once I got over the fact that I really wasn't too impressed by Leonardo DiCaprio playing an Irishman with a really crappy accent. But yay for Daniel Day-Lewis!

The story was good and worthy of anyone's time. I am especially impressed (read: thankful) that Scorcese decided to build the set instead of CGI the whole damn thing. Believability in the CGI world only goes so far.

We also stayed up and watched the documentary-ish thing on the special features section, was interesting to see how they researched everything for this movie. Interesting to note that the devestation caused by the riots back then was greater in numbers than the devestation caused by the attacks on the WTC. Near the end they mentioned something about the Statue of Liberty being a gift from France, which made SO laugh a little to think of the irony. I knew about the whole gift from France bit but apparently he did not. "Really? From France? That place with the F-word everyone is replacing with the word Freedom? Interesting."

So I forget where I was going with this. Didn't get to sleep till 4 am. Was got up at 6 by the rugrats. Am now going to get some breakfast. Ta-ta.

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Posted by Slowplum on 7/12/2003 06:33:00 PM
cut out my heart and it flies to the ceiling,
time will destroy you like a mexican god

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