MRI results: No tumors, no bleeding. There was an incidental note of retention cyst/polyp in both maxillary sinuses (not something to get all up in arms about though).

Inconclusive otherwise.

I see my neurologist on Monday. My family doctor is frustrated as he has no answers for me.

Me: "What do I do about the excrutiating pain in my head and left side?"

Doctor: "I don't know?" (looking very flummoxed)

Me: "Excellent. That makes two of us."

So I'm to take the amitriptylene at night for now to help me sleep, and just wait it out till I see the neurologist. Just a few more days, right? I shouldn't die before that, right?

I am looking at the silver lining here: No tumors. No internal cranial bleeding. The headaches and severe pain I am having have no basis in something life-threatening, apparently.

Talked to a friend who has MS, she said to wait it out. Her first three MRI's came out clear before she got a diagnosis. She also said at least if there were no lesions/plaques apparent, then if I did have MS, that remyelinization was occuring and that was a *good* sign because it meant I was getting it early. (Earlier diagnoses make for better prognosis - aggressive therapy can stop a lot of the progression in its tracks.) In the end I am not caring much what it is as long as it's treatable and there is an answer for me to bring me back to normal life (whatever that is).

Had an x-ray of my back done this afternoon. That was uneventful, as x-rays go. Won't know results of that until next week.

Um. So yeah. How was your day?

C dropped the bomb to K about our trip this morning. This resulted in a few tears, until I helped K figure out a "boys only" itinerary for when C and I are gone. He's excited at the idea of spending time just him and Daddy, so I'm going to have to have a talk with S tonight to make it happen. Not that S neglects our kids or anything, but I want S to understand that K will have expectations for their alone time, and he'd better be prepared for that.

The Walk for MS is coming up soon. I should probably get around to setting up online pledges or something. I'm typically a slacker in that department but this year I need to get my act together. It just seems like just that one more thing on top of a million other things that are just sapping my energy right now, and I don't know what to do with that. I may just end up donating lots to my friend SM or to my cousin V as they are both participating in the actual walk, whereas I'm just volunteering behind the scenes.

I feel light-headed. Hooray for Sinutab.

Ok, time to shovel the end of my driveway. Stupid snowmachinethinger.